Humpty Dumpty

Life is crazy. Time passes on. I have neglected my blog once again. Sorry. Really, I should be apologizing to myself. For I am also neglecting me too.

I have always been that way. I am the one who is always helping others, picking them up, holding the peices for them, in some cases - putting them back together. Playing the game of Humpty Dumpty.

The truth is - as it always has been - it is hard for me to let people be there for me, to ask for help or just be selfish & put me first. No doubt it is difficult for me to trust others. I feel like I'm a fireman firewoman, putting out fires as I see them appear. Waiting for the next one to ignite.

I cannot save & protect everyone. I know this. For I am not, nor will I ever be, a Savior.

I have been trying to work on my breathing for the last day or so. I think it is important for me to remember how to breath. Truly. Think about it... When is the last time you took a deep breath & actually felt your lungs expand? Yes, breathing is a good thing.

The point is, everyone has things going on. I am no different. It is okay for me to say, "No, I am sorry I cannot help you right now" & the world won't end. Somewhere in my head I know this is the truth. Now, the challenge is getting the rest of me to believe it.